A Walk in the Park

Uhm.... I have been a temporary Administrative Assistant (to the Director of Pharmacy) at the University of Utah Hospital since December 10, 2007.

I found out yesterday morning that I am being replaced.

I was quite an angered when I initially found out.
But now... not so much.

I actually feel great about it; I can't wait to leave!

Not that the job is/was anything bad; I mean, I get paid upwards of $13/hr. to answer a phone and read all day!!... Nothing to sneeze at.

But, I don't think I am meant to stay up here. I mean, of course I never thought I would work up here for the rest of my existance, but still.

I just feel that Heavenly Father wants something else for me.

I had prayed and prayed, and worked so hard to get up here, and I couldn't understand why Heavenly Father wouldn't just let me have what I wanted.

Now I do.

I had to learn some things.

About life

work

myself.


Now I understand.


I don't know why it has taken so long for this to hit home, but now I finally comprehend the act of letting Heavenly Father work through you; allowing His will to be done.

The things that I wanted were not bad. They just weren't meant for me.

And I pestered Him enough about it that He let me have them, even though these things were not what I was supposed to be doing.


I have no plan now.

I do not know where I am going to find another job.

I do not know where I am going to go to school.

Or how I will fund said schooling.

I do not know about alot of things. But of one thing my faith in and knowledge of will not waiver: Lose yourself in the service of God. He will never lead you astray. He will take you by the hand and guide you to where you need to be. And if you are doing what He wants with the right intent, he will guide your tongue so as to bear testimony to those who need to hear it.

I know this.

I trust in Him with all my heart.


I love Him.

And that is really all there is to it.